I've been thinking a lot these days.
Thinking a lot, but not doing much.
I have this problem where I control myself too much.
I worry that if I do not intensely scrutinize and censor myself,
that something dark and awful will slip out.
I am often stuck between the need to be vulnerable and open,
and a terrified urge to conceal myself,
supressing everything in myself.
Something must be wrong with me to even feel this way,
right?
